two thousand circle not a line

it's going be okay.
starting now.


happy new year.
happy two thousand and gine,
two thousand take it as a sign,
two thousand i feel fine.

hooray!

we have all the time in the world here

(that's a lie.)


i am living in number one anxiety panic world.
this is what I'm going to do:
-move back to Missouri, play music until my eardrums explode and then tour and sleep in cars
-move to LA and hate it but work really hard because of it
-move to NY and love it and be totally distracted but take up that internship opportunity with dream theatre
-travel all summer on a friend's charity and have my heart broken by children i can't save
-go to grad school for writing in sweden

not all of these things. maybe none of these things.
am i always so crazy this time of year?
am i always so crazy all times of year?

the moment i feel comfortable is the moment the panic begins.

content used to be my favorite color.

Phillip Seymour Hoffman visits the Manor

"I know there are actors out there that present themselves as cool cats, but you better take your cool-cat suit off if you want to act. You can’t otherwise.”

pick up the pieces and go home

I know this is the drama blog, but everything is too dramatic right now to even be vague about it.

So here is the number one item on my Christmas wish list:

If you think this is a joke, then you are terribly wrong about me.
All I can think about is all the high kicks I would do in this garment. The poses are limitless.
If you want to order one for me and my 3 roommates, here's a link catsuit!. It has really positive customer reviews including "My school wants to make these the gym uniform! These are hot."
I would of course wear it while riding my bike in the winter, but really it just needs some cat ears.

There is a creature living in our crawl space. We've been hanging out with it for some time now. I am pretty sure I just heard it crawl into the cage that Animal Control gave us, eat the bait, have a struggle and some squeaks, and exit. EXIT! But I didn't hear it scurry away. So maybe Aidy is right about it, and it fainted.